found this nice layout from the premade_ljs community and fell in love with it. i really like the header! ^_^v

unfortunately, there are some things i'd like to edit, and although losethesmog has been vastly helpful in my noobish initial forays into CSS, there are some things that i wish i knew how to manipulate... such as the friggin' Metadata line, or whatever it's called. i'd rather that the Mood, Music, and Location  were on separate lines, and not just in one. and that there was adequate space from the last line of text...

anyway, it seems im gonna have to actually study the basics of CSS if i ever really want to make something i can totally like. well, nothing like learning something new... i just hope i have enough time for even just the basics of the basics.

browsing through our combined music stash, i come along Avril Lavigne. not really a fan, more because of the image she's trying to project than her music, but i found this particular line in one of her songs and it somehow elicited a reaction somewhere (much like an electrical impulse from a corpse):

It's a damn cold night,
trying to figure out this life.
Take me by the hand,
take me somewhere new.
I don't know who you are,
but I'm with you.

the song is I'm With You. and frankly, anyone who claims they've never felt this way at one point in their lives is a walking pile of bullshit. whether people will admit to it or not, the drive for companionship (not necessarily romantic) never leaves us totally. and although there are times when being alone is such a pleasure, we feel a lot confident to be alone because i think we all believe or hold on to the fact that companionship is never too far away.

it's funny how the world works... life, being difficult as it is just seems to enjoy pulling you around, twisting space and time, and making you doubt things that shouldn't be doubted.

lessons from the past rarely come into play nowadays... living in the present has truly made life a lot more interesting and involved. but now, i am yet again reminded that the past is your treasure trove of small joys, great hurts, tiny snickers and giggles, and enduring wisdom that remains true no matter what happens.

"when in doubt and everything is in confusion... go back to your truth." so true. disregard all outside influences for a moment, and take the time to sort out the static trash of your mind and reach out for the bedrock of what is true. you'll always find the answer there.

and so here i am, and here we are. starting anew, taking it slow. i have learned that there is no rush... take it slow, accept all that comes, nice and easy. starting again isn't so hard, especially if you have something valuable to hold on to and the lessons aren't forgotten. truth is all you need.

ah... life has never been better.

is that it?! is that your BEST?!!!

yeah.... im down. im in pain. but...

BRING IT ON~!!!!!

im not done yet. im not dead yet. and as long as i draw breath, i will continue to fight!! the battle isn't over yet!!

now... with nothing held back... PREPARE THYSELF!!!!!!!

GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH~!!!!!

hahahahahaha~!!!

this cracked me up.... but damn, i answered honestly tho...